So many birthdays..

So many birthdays in my family this month, but today I am feeling sad. I hate to know my dad won't understand why we are visiting him today. Maybe he won't even recognize me? I never know, every day is different. So much depends on how he has slept and eaten. I'm really hoping he is having a good day. But I miss him. So much. I wish life were more fair.. I'm sorry about my ramblings lately. I was going to keep my personal post to my lj blog and art here. But I am lazy and need to let up some steam. It's not like I don't speak of my problems irl but I try hard to keep it fact based instead of emotionall. But sometimes a person just want to say "life Sucks and I am heartbroken". It's not like I want pity but sometimes people you meet says such strange things. One friend even asked "are you missing your dad?" .... Of course I am, you idiot. I don't miss living with my sick dad, I miss talking to my dad who remembers who I am though. Sometimes people say the dumbest things...

On a brighter note, work has given me a more creative task. I work at burger king, mainly in the kitchen. Opening and closing shifts as well. With an ever so growing list of extra responsibilities. So at first I was annoyed that they added an extra thing to that list but I am gonna take on this challenge. For you see, I have been put in charge for weekend events for kids.  Like coloring and stuff. I do love kids and I do love messing with papers, glue and colors. I am nervous too, since I have a slight issue with social interactions. But I will see this as good experience both work wise and as in social training. And to work with more artsy stuff, on a kid level of course. Now to come up with fun, cheap and yes easy ideas!